First go

Hello!  This is my first attempt at blogging. Please be patient with me as I learn.    One thing I do know, is that no matter what I go through, I can depend on Jesus and his teachings to get me through.

I recently lost my older brother, he was 66.  So devastating and such a shock.  The church I attend, decided to create a grief support group because so many had lost loved ones in the last year.  I was very skeptical at first about the group. Didn’t think it would work for me; so I told myself I would go so I could help the others in the group.  The first night I discovered I was not the only skeptic.  One other gentleman, was far worse than I.  He kept repeating “I don’t know why I am here, I have talked to more counselors than the 10 of you here.”  By the end of the 8 week class, he was thankful and in a better place like I was.  I had grieved along with the others for their situations and also for my own.  The hardest part was when we were asked to write a letter to our loved one we lost and read it out loud to the group.  None of us could read out letter without crying and/or sobbing.  The letters had to contain the following:  “Dear….”, “I remember when you…”, “The hardest part about your death for me is…”, “It would have been nice if…”, “I’m really sorry for..”, “My best time with you was..”, “If you were here right now, I would…”, “Thank you for…”.

I found the letter to be easy to write but next to impossible to read.  With that said, it helped me immensely.  I was wrong about thinking a grief group could help.  It did help and I am back to my old self again and enjoying life. I hope this wasn’t too much of a downer!  Have a great week in the Lord!  Talk to you soon.